days

15th - One of those days during LDR. Loneliness is imminent.

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Inspired by a time during English class and when sedition act was given out faster than I could catch a break.

amber

 December 2017

Written back in 2017, for a guy whom I wasn't sure had moved on, yet I was waiting for him. Some things are worth questioning as to whether it was worth it or not. This was the first piece I performed for 'If Walls Could Talk'. At that time, I wasn't confident in my spoken word abilities, so I had only invited 3 people. One of them being said guy. None showed up and I have never felt more afraid of the stage than on that day. 

P/S - To the muse of the poem, if you somehow accidentally stumble upon this, hello.

for m - mikko harvey

the work - https://www.foundryjournal.com/harvey.html

The first time I read it, I wondered what in the world was the writer feeling? Was it tension and nervousness? Wanting to have control over everything yet knowing very well that, we have control over almost nothing that will happen eventually. Were they consoling themselves or were they consoling you? So many questions yet the beauty of art is that unless explained explicitly, it is always up to your interpretation. 

A part that had me hooked completely was the final bits.

What

the fuck.

The number

of hours

we have

together is

actually not

so large.

Please linger

near the

door uncomfortably

instead of

just leaving.

Please forget

your scarf

in my

life and

come back

later for

it. 

The poem is written in such an unorthodox way where reading it itself can get a bit uncomfortable. Even as temporary things and circumstances are, people aren't an exception yet we find more excuses to seek them or even have them seek us again.

Hello, Archiving

Recently I found out that Notegraphy has ceased to exist, which means a big chunk of my writings have disappeared. Which also means, I need a new outlet to archive my writings. I prefer not the mainstream outlets. It has been become too stagnant. I could have gone on Tumblr but I might distract myself from reblogging too many unnecessary posts. Wordpress would have been okay too, but the interface is such a drag to work with at times. Especially since I am writing about novels there and making quotations can be a bit of a hassle. From time to time, I would like to write about some favourite works. Thus, I am here. Not that I have left anyways.